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Thursday, May 21 - 0 COMMENTS 
Day by day, I am
getting tired to face up the up coming days. Well, recently I kept losing
myself in this real world's life which is much tougher, much harder than what I
thought. I realized, a part of my life perishes with every day I lost myself.
The problem is, I still couldnt find myself in the reality.
Masih berharap
someone could stand by my side when life gets hard and even when it’s getting
easier. Dreaming that there will be some people who could turn every of my
frown and sadness into a smile. Certainly, it's not a very fake smile. Hm, yes
I can clearly see what is the real happiness of my life is, it’s just I still
don't get the way on how to be the happiest girl in this big world as happy as
the dramas heroines who is having the seriously happy ending in their own
stories.
What’s wrong with me?
I dont know why. I keep asking myself, “Do I made mistakes? Do I did wrong to
people?”. Sometimes, I’m losing my will to live. Then I persuade myself to
understand people around me. I’ve tried so hard to make things right and I am
really giving up to continue my effort. Alright, say what you wanna say. I’m
going to sit here, hearing all the dirty sayings because from now on, I’m going
to be the strongest girl in the world and I am in charge for my life now.
Please, keep my words. This will be the last words from me to you;
stranger.
Emotionally; I’m
done. Mentally; I’m drained. Deep inside; I swear it’s hurt.
You dont know how
hard my life is when people who I love the most went away from my life. Physically,
they dont really talk to me anymore and even dont want to look at me and give
me a smile and go away when I come near. Do you feel that?
Never.
Never mind, maybe
I’ve did very big mistakes towards people. I thought I was good enough in
making dfference on someone’s life. Good enough to put up smile on them. I know
I was wrong and I won’t ask another chance from you because I’ve put so much
effort to make things right and you, dont even noticed it.
I am tired enough. I
lost my heart. I lost you in my life.
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